Always for an Audience
This morning I was yet again faced with the fact that I am aging. If you just gasped and said, “I wish I was his age”, then you may have already experienced moments just like I did this morning.
I was out for a jog, enjoying my new Mp3 player, feeling great, loving life and running fast (at least that’s what I thought). I turned the corner on to a paved trail and up ahead saw a caution flag. Since it was just getting light out it was hard to make out what it was for. Soon I realized it was in front of a 3 foot hole in the trail. Almost immediately the challenge to jump over it began to pound through my mind. Al I could hear in one ear was, “you are quick and agile and athletic and fast and you can jump high….” (for some reason my ego always has pretty good things to say about me).
As I made the approach, I found myself timing my steps, envisioning myself flying over the obstacle and landing gracefully in stride.
What I thought and what I did were two totally different things!!!
My timing was a little off, my jump was a little awkward and my landing off-balanced. As soon as I landed (though it was not pretty, it was on my feet) I looked towards a group of townhouses about 500 yards to the left for affirmation. Then I thought, if someone was happening to look out their window, I probably made their day.
I can hear them at work now, “Ok, this morning, I was looking out the window for deer and turkeys and this guy was out running. He must have thought he was in competition or something because he attempted to jump over a little caution flag and as soon as he landed (awkwardly) he looked right over at the townhouses. What a loser!
I guess I am struggling with why I immediately looked around for some affirmation. I was hoping someone would see my great athletic feat (if you can call a three foot leap over a two foot high caution flag athletic). I am finding that I am far too easily persuaded by the affirmation of those around me and far to slow to seek the affirmation of my Lord and Savior.
This week our sermon passage is found in John 18:1-11. This is John’s recollection of the betrayal of Jesus. A betrayal is not the end and this betrayal is certainly no exception. It is the beginning in a line of events sovereignly ordained by God to bring about our salvation. I hope you will be able to join in the service this Sunday at 10:45am at Union Hill Veterans Hall. Hopefully there will be no obstacles between the parking lot and the building. I can only imagine how high I can jump in my dress shoes.
I was out for a jog, enjoying my new Mp3 player, feeling great, loving life and running fast (at least that’s what I thought). I turned the corner on to a paved trail and up ahead saw a caution flag. Since it was just getting light out it was hard to make out what it was for. Soon I realized it was in front of a 3 foot hole in the trail. Almost immediately the challenge to jump over it began to pound through my mind. Al I could hear in one ear was, “you are quick and agile and athletic and fast and you can jump high….” (for some reason my ego always has pretty good things to say about me).
As I made the approach, I found myself timing my steps, envisioning myself flying over the obstacle and landing gracefully in stride.
What I thought and what I did were two totally different things!!!
My timing was a little off, my jump was a little awkward and my landing off-balanced. As soon as I landed (though it was not pretty, it was on my feet) I looked towards a group of townhouses about 500 yards to the left for affirmation. Then I thought, if someone was happening to look out their window, I probably made their day.
I can hear them at work now, “Ok, this morning, I was looking out the window for deer and turkeys and this guy was out running. He must have thought he was in competition or something because he attempted to jump over a little caution flag and as soon as he landed (awkwardly) he looked right over at the townhouses. What a loser!
I guess I am struggling with why I immediately looked around for some affirmation. I was hoping someone would see my great athletic feat (if you can call a three foot leap over a two foot high caution flag athletic). I am finding that I am far too easily persuaded by the affirmation of those around me and far to slow to seek the affirmation of my Lord and Savior.
This week our sermon passage is found in John 18:1-11. This is John’s recollection of the betrayal of Jesus. A betrayal is not the end and this betrayal is certainly no exception. It is the beginning in a line of events sovereignly ordained by God to bring about our salvation. I hope you will be able to join in the service this Sunday at 10:45am at Union Hill Veterans Hall. Hopefully there will be no obstacles between the parking lot and the building. I can only imagine how high I can jump in my dress shoes.
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